August 29th, 2002

this is sad. i get my webpage back up after a grueling couple of weeks, and now ‘m slacking on posting. i had so much to say when my webpage was down, and now look at me *grin*

but anyway, ‘m blogging as my “break” from cleaning my room…. (well.. the cleaning is going really slow, because it consists mostly of looking through the old stuff i find and reminiscing) since my room looks like my closet puked all over my floor. (yea… graphic picture.. but trust me.. i’s a disaster in here!) i figured i should clean my room and maybe do some laundry before we go to minnesota for the weekend (ahhh! i ca’t wait!!!)… since classes start up right when we get back. (yuck. ‘m not looking forward to classes to start.. can you tell?)

some times… when i really clean my room, ‘ll take the time to look at the stuff that ‘m cleaning. and i always find pictures. (go fig. *grin*) pictures from recent occasions most of the time, but every so often, i find older pictures, and i am always taken back in time to remember those days. ‘m taken back and remember the friends i had and have not talked to in years… the friends who have passed away…. the friends who have changed. i look at how things were, and i smile. but then i remember how _I_ was in those days. how on the outside i was happy, smiley and care-free. but in the inside i felt depressed… alone… empty. it makes me so much more thankful for my life today…. a life filled with joy (joy is not the absence of trouble, but the presence of Christ)

as i listen out my window, and hear the freshman coming back from the parties down the street… intoxicated… shouting… laughing… running… falling…….. i am reminded of how many people have that emptiness in their life. it breaks my heart. but mountains will be moved this year. i am sure of it.

2 Responses to “reminders”

  1. Stacy says:

    you always have something to say when ther’s nobody around – including the computer.

  2. julia says:

    i did that recently… while organizing my photographs. old memories can be like blankets of comfort or difficult reminders *s*

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