Would I smile if I was broken? Would I dance on crippled feet?
Would I fall too far behind again, or run a race I know I can?t complete?
Would I give if I had nothing, and could I love the ugly me?
Would I try so hard to be so strong, when I know that all I am is weak,
All I am is weak . . .
Would I clench my fist, fall down and scream at all I cannot do?
Or dry my eyes and crawl back to my feet,
And stumble after you.
Would I grin in my embarrassment, and would I laugh when the joke is me?
Could I look you in the eyes still, when my crippled legs are all that I can see,
All that I can see . . .
So take my hands if they won?t give, and take my life so I can lift you.
Take my eyes if they?re on me, please take my heart and make it bleed.
Take all this up to a hill and crucify the king of will
Till all I have runs down my face and I?m a wretch who?s drowning in your grace.
(lyrics from’stumble after yo’, by all weather human)
so ‘m honestly feeling kinda broken. i feel as if ‘m on crippled legs. but then again, are’t we all? we can never measure up. we all fail at something. i feel very, unprepared. very inadequate. very weak. but will i focus on that? will my eyes only see my crippled legs? will i only focus on my shortcomings? or can i look beyond my weakness, and see how very strong and able God is. i fear that i will fail. but if i fix my eyes on Christ, instead of myself, i will continue pushing on in this race. (even if it means crawling…. stumbling… along)
time to pack. we are leaving for sherman, texas around 10pm tonight. time to push along. time to pick up and continue on this journey with Christ. time to realize that where my strength ends, Go’s begins. time to stop leaning on crutches i make for myself in this world. time to lean on the cross of Christ alone. see you all after memorial day. have a awesome and safe weekend. *hugz*