yes. i need to post an entry. why? cuz i have a lot on my mind.
why have’t i posted on tracyapps.org since august? because i always posted entries on thisroad.org.
why do’t i do that now? well thisroad.org was so rudely and abruptly deleted from under my feet.
sad day on my face.
man WAY down.
etc.

so her’s the deal. all my journal entries from the road (in the united states AND danmark) are all gone. all my’fall tou’ pictures are gone. and all my emails on thisroad.org… gone. and i ca’t just get thisroad.org back up, because all the original files i used to create thisroad.or’s layout are not on this computer. so thisroad is officially wiped clean. a completely blank canvas replaces hours, days and months of work, words, images and thoughts.

it kinda makes me sick when i think of all the things i lost. but a lesson to be learned in this experience, is that God does’t have server problems. we have these problems on earth. and they stink, yes. but God is still good. God is still perfect. and God is still in control. so while i have several hours of work ahead of me to start thisroad.org over again, i can still rejoice in the name of Jesus.

so now.. inspiration. i need some of that. hey God? wanna help me build a webpage?

what a day. 🙂

i went to my cousi’s birthday party (h’s 21. i feel old. my “little” cousins are getting older… and MUCH taller than me.. ahh!) and had a chance to talk to family for a bit… and watch others get thrown in the pool with their clothes on. (heh) i also always seem to leave my family with lots of food! my roommates love me because of all the food i bring home for them. hehe

anyway, the most important part of my day was later when i went to church at my friend am’s church. i really do like that church, and it was a good thing that i decided to go tonight (even though i lost track of time and ended up getting there late, and almost could’t find my other friends who were already in church).

the sermon tonight was about “living on the edge.” it was really good for me to hear. the passage was about the “twin cities”, sodom and gomorrah, being destroyed. the’citie’ represented sin, and God telling lot to leave the city behind, and head far away to the mountains, represented Go’s calling us to leave behind the sinful life, and find true life, joy and freedom in His presence. lot did’t want to go too far from the city where he had made his <i'hom', so he bargained with God to flee to a smaller town just outside the cities. this is what we tend to do in our own lives …. we want to’live on the edg’ …. not leave our past completely behind us and move far away. why? fear, indecision, doubt? *shrugs*

anyway, the sermon was really awesome, and the pastor even brought a dog into the church for his sermon. it was pretty funny to see the dog running around on a long leash… and jumping up on the pews etc. 🙂 (mind you, this is a HUGE church. i think this place can seat over 1,200 people) and the dog on the leash tied in perfectly with the sermon topic, which i found pretty cool. when living on the edge, we are just like the dog… always trying to tug on the leash to get further, but going back to the owner when we need something (like the treat of a piece of chicken that the dog so anxiously went back for.) and then running back to where our interests lie… in the world.

anyway, before i make this post WAY too long for my own good, ‘m just gonna say that the lesson today was very good, and that our decisions to follow Christ should be all or nothing… not “living on the edge” between both choices…
i choose Christ.